SENT ITEMS
9/22/06
So here is where it started. When life began to unravel and descend into madness. An email message sent a year ago today, on 9/22/05, after two consecutive nights of not sleeping and a frenzied week of activities to assist with Hurricane Katrina. My vision to help rebuild New Orleans' schools was grandiose, but were not the cause for concern. But then came the red flag that something was terribly off, quite literally, in my brain. I have edited some of names and places in the email. And yes, I really did send it to all those people...

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FROM: Me (Dr. L)
TO: My sister, several colleagues, a professor at a prestigious university, two principals of schools, a few close friends, a former colleague in London, a state congresswoman, a lawyer, my boss -- all kinds of people in my address book.
DATE: Thu, 22 Sep 2005 06:20:31 -0700
SUBJECT: For those of you who are wondering what the fuck is going on...

Dear Students of E's Advisory at MW High School Across the Bay:

Thank you for letting me sit and talk and share with you my history and learn about your own passions and experience and questions and to talk about the Hurricane. I learned a lot from you and I hope you learned something from me. As promised, I am getting back in touch with you and others. It took me a long time to get to your school and I was questioning while all these roadblocks were put up....

If you want to help change how things are in society, you will have to ACTIVATE ALL YOUR RESOURCES SIMULTANEOUSLY AND FOCUS ON A SINGLE CAUSE, MISSION, VISION, PURPOSE, OBJECTIVE.

There is a very small window of opportunity, and even though there have been many signs, people who do know know, how to think, or have been too busy are not able to see what is happening around the world. Some people are busy, some people are distracted, most of us are just maxed out. And the ones who can really take charge are taking care of their families. They are the ones that have the habits of heart, mind, soul, sisterhood, etc... We are working mothers, and it is very hard to find the time. So we have to get up very early, like you, G who gets up every morning and takes an 1 1/2 hour journey to get to Maple Land. She is the one who told me that everyone who tries to get to MW high school gets lost, especially in Maple Land.

But you have to start asking and telling people about the differences between the east and the west. THERE ARE NO DIFFERENCES, JUST WHAT WE HAVE IN COMMON. People in power like to take DNC and distort it.

DNC = Abortion
DNC = Democratic National Convention
DNC = Divide & Conquer

We are going to rewrite the rules of engagement, laydees!

The rules of Change are "R"s == Revise, Retool, Rethink, Redesign

When it gets hard, just breathe and listen to Toni Braxton's Please, I GOTSTA BREATHE. Breathing brings rest, relaxation, and that restores your health and ability to rethink.

Back to rethink.

It is time for a series of major campaigns to be ACTIVATED around the world in DIFFERENT LANGUAGES. This can be done because it's very EZ

EZ=Easy

When it gets scary, just breathe and say HOLY SHIT.

Yep, this if holy. I was going to say fucking holy. But that combination is bad. But here is how I see things RIGHT NOW. Everything that has been given to us is about to be taken away by the POP

POP=People in Power

The people in power are not mothers. They are SWM [sorry, but this has to be said, things that people never talked about like race and religion are now going be talked about because there are people out there willing and ready and know how. I think. I hope. This is personal mantra. Say that every day, friends.

SWM= Single with male, stupid white men ==? Check out michael moore. He is trying to get to New Orleans and is being stopped 25 miles out because of the stench of death and destruction and disease. Is he OK? Mothers care. Politicians ask other questions. We ask questions from our heart and our role, etc.

This area is being patrolled by BLACKWATER ==> Ask others why are they there? Who is black water? Why is it not clean water? Where is the H20. Is it clean?

Go to your local starbucks, I love them: Look at their campaign: about ethos and clean water. Tell them to donate water. They will look at you funny. You will have to explain. Don't worry. It's weird. But you will find your voice.

We're rewriting the rules of engagement. Just remember

R are the tools of inquiry. I always get enquiry and inquiry confused. Check it out.

I told you about my name
(Initials)

I told you about my mother? Another time
MSN.
Her mother was Marina ? Is all I know. I will find out and look into the past.

Marina, Katrina, ? It's about the purification of water.

The men in power have shit on the water. They have pooped in the water. They did not bring water to the mothers and their babies died of thirst.

That is unacceptable and the mothers of the world need to know that we are not taking this crap any longer.

I met a woman today in Maple Land, I was tryiing to reFUEL, my car. I didn't need gas, actually, I needed money, but the MAN MADE ME MAD. He made me buy gas I didn't need. Oh well. I bought his stupid gas and got some extra cash out and saw a sign: JUICE APPEAL. I wish I could put the juice in my car, I thought.

Well, I'm making lemonades out of lemons, my sister in my neighborhood likes to say when I tell her I'm stressed.

There I met a lovely mother, she was so tired. We talked about how hard life is being a mother. I said, I am so glad this place is here. I told her the story about needing money, not gas, and she laughed. But now I can get some healthy juice, she said.

She said that she liked Juice Appeal because it appealed to her emotion of the day. I said, Unbelievable. What a great idea. This is amazing. I saw it there: Raspberry Rage; Cantaloupe Quencher, other combinations of fruits and ideas. (Some of you already I think I've gone off my rocker, but that's okay. You'll just

When you bring ideas to the table they are like apples. Apples hold knowledge. Eve had an Apple. We all know what happened.

Remember, we are rewriting history, ourselves. It's about perspective. This is the perspective of the mothers, and we are sick of this shit.

All the D's -- the Death, destruction, you can add it up. Sometimes Dad. Dad is an acronym.

The answer is A-Z. The path to recovery are in the letters, the ideas, the voice.

But we have been working on the basics, we can only do 3 things hold 3 ideas in our head, Anything else, working moms get sick.

Sisters look out for each other. Men compete. We're about to transform the world. We have used our senses but lost one sense. Our mind. Why do they call women hysterical? What do they give them hysterectomies. It's in the history books. The history books are in the libraries. When you go to the library you:

IK = I know.

Ike. This is scary. I know I know I see I see.

Are you seeing? Do you believe what is happening? It's all around us but something has enabled me to see. Something. A force. And all the letters behind my name.

It's in the letters. We're about to bring down the house, clean it up. Staring with the kitchen. I'm sick of this shit.

SOS = SOS. Sick of shit. Shit of luck. Watch out for L's -- lust, lions, but those things can also be good and lead to love and roars. Are you getting it now?

SOLD! = I'M IN, I'M GOOD
SOLD$ = MONEY COMING IN
SOLD ; o -- HOLY SHITI

I'M going to stop now because I sense some evil in the air.

Times are scary.

Last thing. Watch out for S's -- snakes are sneaky. I have a team of S's but they are secret. The are reading this message and completely freaked out. They couldn't think that such a thing, that our/their work was all combined. Holy shit.

I went over a bridge this morning. Talk with you girls. Saw the writing on the wall. I've been transformed. I've made the connections. It's up to you. I've got people who know the code, some with keys, some with secrets, some with $$, some with ideas, some with access

I just fired a shot around the world. It's time for revolution.
We are about to rewrite the rules and it's going to be free and all on good will. No money involved, well, except for the rich who now have to give to the poor.

One last miracle. I have managed to live and think on very little sleep. You can too. When you awaken your brain. We waste a lot energy, scratching our heads and other parts of our body trying to figure it out. There is a reason why you are scratching your head. You are trying to figure this out.

Don't. Just ACTIVATE, PRINT OUT YOUR EMAILS, AND CONNECT THE ORDERS IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER AND USE THE CODE. EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO DO IS IN CAPS.

YOU WILL HAVE QUESTIONS, TONS. DON'T WORRY. SOMETHINGS CANNOT BE EXPLAINED, AND SOME THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.

BUT GOD IS FED UP. GOD IS PISSED OFF. GOD IS MAD THAT WE HAVE NOT TAKEN CARE OF OUR MOTHERS AND HE IS ABOUT TO PUT ONE IN CHARGE: (ME).

GO! I'LL TELL THE STORY LATER ABOUT CROSSING THE BRIDGE OVER THE WATER.

Oh, and if you are in. Email me now.

Remember the code: Snakes are all around us ready to strike and steal.

There are times in the world where missions and visions and all that stuff converge. When the path is clear and the reason why you did all the stuff you did, putting up with BS, etc, happened. I am happy to sit with you and share my own story about my name and my educational history sometime.

So, laydez, you will have either get on the bus or get off. My good friend, OL, once told me a story that made me cry and run away with shame. She told me that Toni Morrison, yes, the great author, once said. I think that if they came and took me away on the bus, my white friends would let them. Think about that. Research that. Use your habits of mind girls!

I have a few websites for you to start researching:
FHAO. I have been trying for 3 years to figure out how and why I want them in my life and now I know. They have wonderful materials for you to borrow and start teaching folks. Great stuff. When you are ready, I will hook you up. You will need to assign a person.

We're about to start a movement and it will be fun, scary, hard, tiring, people you know and love will think you are crazy, but that is what happens when you want to change the world. You have look at all the signs and then draw a conclusion. Then you must weigh the evidence. Then you must deicde what the various solutions are and what steps to take. That is the scariest part!

So let me know if you, like Rosa Parks are ready to say: TO HELL WITH THIS, I'M GETTING ON THE BUS!

If you are, let me know!

K: Get with G and J and M and brainstorm ASAP A WISH LIST TO GET MORE GIRLS SAILING AROUND THE WORLD DELIVERING MESSAGES. THIS IS HOW WE WILL USE THE SEA. WE WILL FEEL SICK AT FIRST BUT WE HAVE TO USE OUR SISTERHOOD TO HELP EACH OTHER FEEL BETTER, IT’S LIKE WHEN YOU WILL GIVE BIRTH. YOU TELL THE SECRET TO THOSE YOU TRUST, WHO CARE, WHO KNOW YOU, WHO WILL DO SOMETHING WITH THAT KNOWLEDGE. BACK TO BIDNEZZZZ. FIND OUT WHO TALKS LIKE THAT. YOU KNONW. I CAN TELL YOU IF YOU GET STUCK BUT YOU HAVE TO EMAIL ME AND IT WILL BE IN AIRPORT CODE.

TIP: CODE IS GOOD BUT WHEN YOU TALK OR SEND ANYTNING TO THE PUBLIC IT MUST BE SHARP, CLEAR, EDITED. SOMETIMES WE TALK IN CODE; OTHER TIMES WE TALK IN PUBLIC; WE TALK DIFFERENTLY IN PRIVATE AND PUBLIC SETTINGS. IT'S CALLED CODE SWITCHING. NUFSAID.