Upside Down You're Turning Me
3.3.08

I am having trouble reading my signs. One moment I think I am okay, and then suddenly, I feel very off. Then I feel fine, and then I don't. One day, I feel in control, and then the next, I want to drive straight into a brick wall. I look around my home, I see order and feel like I am maintaining my responsibilities, but then I want to throw dishes everywhere and crawl under the bed. I want my husband to hold me and tell me that he loves me, but then I can't breathe with him watching my every move. I feel like I am riding the rapids and hate that I have to readjust my lifevest at every twist and turn